i began my day feeling like my life was a huge joke to the universe - whose humor, by the way, was completely fucking lost on me.one of those things you know is not going to make that much of a difference in the scope of your life,but. you know. just the profound disappointment of … Continue reading experiment 39 : 27
[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIF6f3tFxBw?rel=0]i first read about him in 1998. in the review section of rolling stone magazine. rufus wainwright. highly praised with a mention of his being openly gay. i bought the album and didn't quite know what to make of him at first. because his music was unlike anything i had ever heard before. i remember … Continue reading experiment 39 : 26.
what's in a name : p2.so check it.i used to work with this kid at the writing center at city who LOVED to talk theory. and he seemed to relish the fact that few of us knew what the fuck he was talking about. of which i was not one. all it seemed to me … Continue reading experiment 39 : 25.
© ryan sheffieldcheck it.this morning's new york times magazine was, like, one of those year end reflections on the death's of notable people. one of them was ray bradbury. they included this quote in his blurb :"Every single moment of my life has been incredible. I've loved it, I've savored it, it's been beautiful - … Continue reading experiment 39 : 23.
all right.so, check it.i have to take issue with the fact that the only representations of the muses i seem to be able to find are along the lines of this kinda bullshit.cuz none of mine sure as shit look like that.i'm one of those writers : i'm not gonna call myself an artist cuz … Continue reading experiment 39 : 22.
check it.that's what i feel like the inside of my head would look like.the abstract or whatever.riding the momentum of the semester. creatively.thinking about papers i want to write.grad school.how poor i am and how i don't give a shit.happy just to take my walkstiny notebook tucked away, of course.shooting.i might have said before that … Continue reading experiment 39 : 21.
okay. calm the fuck down.let's keep in mind i didn't move to berkeley to blog.so, check it.i'm great at romance. selective to a fault. and it's always the smart girls that get me. in this case. v.the first time we met was chillin' at stuart's crib. talking with the zoo crew on my roof, passing a … Continue reading experiment 39 : 20.
check it.over the last year i've been thinking of my own mortality in a way i never have before.i'm thirtyfuckingninemy mother died of cancerand i was raised by a man who made his fear of my potential illness known in unequivocal terms.which is why i quit smokingwhich is why little things now have a tendency … Continue reading experiment 39 : 19.
all right.check it.that kid up there, that's edgar.he's an awesome little fellow that often gets cast as stuart's second fiddle.we met at this place i worked at for a while,kind of a half dog rescue, half daycare, half overpriced dog shop in beverly hills adjacent kinda thing.and during the day the rescues always came into … Continue reading experiment 39 : 18.
check it.'eternal sunshine.'one of the most perfect movie endings ever.perfect in her little cry of relief.so beautiful and real.[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qpux-Drk6EY?rel=0]what love really is.acceptance of imperfection.chance.that click.and i'm not necessarily talking about romantic love, either.often this world feels impossible to navigate.it's fucked up and unfair and complex and most of the time it speaks a language … Continue reading experiment 39 : 17.