as i walked the dogs this morning i had a bit of a revelation. something that had crossed my mind before, but not to the same extent. i always seem to have a woman on my mind. this is a given. lately, though, i've been thinking about women and their place in my life in a … Continue reading experiment 39 : 29.
all rightcheck it.i fucking love music.a hugehugehuge part of my life.one of its centers.*some is transient, in and out and back again.some constant.there.for weeks or months or sometimes years at a time.music, for me though, is more than mere presence.music, also, is meaning.of course part of it is the meaning of the music itself, but … Continue reading experiment 39 : 28.
i began my day feeling like my life was a huge joke to the universe - whose humor, by the way, was completely fucking lost on me.one of those things you know is not going to make that much of a difference in the scope of your life,but. you know. just the profound disappointment of … Continue reading experiment 39 : 27
check it.i was kind of left to my own devices as a kid, let's say.at times it was great and at times it was lonely.just not much of a typical family life to speak of, you know?i must have been around twelve when i started joining families, finding moms.the lost boy. i was never really … Continue reading experiment 39 : 26.
[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIF6f3tFxBw?rel=0]i first read about him in 1998. in the review section of rolling stone magazine. rufus wainwright. highly praised with a mention of his being openly gay. i bought the album and didn't quite know what to make of him at first. because his music was unlike anything i had ever heard before. i remember … Continue reading experiment 39 : 26.
what's in a name : p2.so check it.i used to work with this kid at the writing center at city who LOVED to talk theory. and he seemed to relish the fact that few of us knew what the fuck he was talking about. of which i was not one. all it seemed to me … Continue reading experiment 39 : 25.
pan ellington. pan. the boy who wouldn't grow up. who never ages. leader of 'the lost boys.' as soon as i was able, i actively sought to revert to the childhood i'd always felt i'd lost. and i think it is quite possible that i believed this with such fervency that i might have … Continue reading experiment 39 : 24.